They say in life that sometimes you gotta stop and smell the roses, but I’m in the middle of fight camp wondering how I’ll have time to stop and smell anything when all I can smell is the scent of my own sweat oozing out of my pores as I push my body to its […]
Read moreWhat do I see when I look in the mirror? Am I happy with the woman staring back at me? Sometimes, but in different ways than I did when I was younger, and never content because I always strive to be better and do better. See, when I was younger I was incredibly self-conscious about […]
Read moreI am she who fights in front. Neither watching from the back nor dictating how to lead from afar, but thrusting myself to the front lines of the challenges I face and determined to do all that I can to prepare myself for the battles to come. After all, I could never request favors of […]
Read moreIt’s hard not to feel like trash constantly in a sport that challenges every facet of your being. Let alone feeling like fucking garbage in your day to day life when inevitably, something doesn’t go according to plan or your mental health is taking a hit due to personal reasons. A lot of times, especially […]
Read moreFight camp has officially begun, so how am I doing mentally? Surprising really fucking good to be honest. Trust me, I’m just as shocked as you are. Talk to any high-level, elite, professional mixed martial artist and they’ll tell you that the preparation of fight camp is one of the most physically grueling and mentally […]
Read moreLeadership is an acquired skill, not a personality trait. My friend Jess told me this the other day, and she says to credit Jocko Willink for this bit of wisdom, but I’m gonna credit her for bringing it to my attention. You see, I’ve been writing a lot lately about my internal struggles, and I’m […]
Read moreI don’t know exactly what I’m doing with this life, but I am sure as shit trying to get the most out of it that I possibly can. These past couple of months have been a blur, and the remainder of 2022 is shaping up to be the exact same. From knee surgery, to countless […]
Read moreYou know, sometimes it’s pretty exhausting always trying to be the ever optimistic voice of reason and profound happiness for every fucking person. I almost feel like I don’t have a right to ever be down or sad because I always have to be the person people turn to when they themselves are down in […]
Read moreInteresting. I started this blog primarily to write and document my experiences training and competing in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu and MMA, and then I find myself relating it to my emotions and personal life experiences more often than not. It has become a therapeutic outlet in a safe space I can air out my grievances […]
Read moreTrauma is probably something that shouldn’t be as highly relatable as it is, but unfortunately, almost every single person you come into contact with has suffered or endured something in their past that has dramatically altered the course of their existence. It has molded us, impacted us, and effected us, but it should never define […]
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