It’s no secret I have a lot of feelings when it comes to this blog, or the things in life I am passionate about. One of them predominately being Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, as much of my life centers around that topic in particular. With an abundance of competition happening lately with me being unable to […]
Read moreI worked so hard growing up never to stand out. I wanted to blend right in so I wouldn’t be differentiated and then subjected to scrutiny and ridicule. Never alone, but always amongst others where I could camouflage myself in the crowd. Early on in childhood, I pushed hard to excel and stand out. Then, […]
Read moreEveryone who has ever read my blogs can be 100% sure of at least 2 things. The first being that although I fight in a cage and grapple on the mats, I’m still a human being with a wide array of feelings, many correlating to those of anxiety, and I get sad and nervous just […]
Read moreI’m going to deviate a bit from my normal Jiu Jitsu spiel and woah’s to talk about something a little bit more personal, truly exposing my vulnerability on this one. I’ve run into a bit of an issue lately when it comes to my mental health and looming anxiety. I think it stems a bit […]
Read moreI compete all the time, but my dumb ass seems to have had a mental block lately when it comes to turning on that different mindset so that it transcends from training, to competition. It’s hard; not everyone has that championship mentality switch that they can turn on and off at a moments notice. Then, […]
Read moreIt’s hard not to feel like trash constantly in a sport that challenges every facet of your being. Let alone feeling like fucking garbage in your day to day life when inevitably, something doesn’t go according to plan or your mental health is taking a hit due to personal reasons. A lot of times, especially […]
Read moreI don’t know exactly what I’m doing with this life, but I am sure as shit trying to get the most out of it that I possibly can. These past couple of months have been a blur, and the remainder of 2022 is shaping up to be the exact same. From knee surgery, to countless […]
Read moreImagine feeling so entitled to your cockamamie opinions, you think you hold some clout when it comes to commenting on the choices and decisions made by the most winningest athlete in history. There is no one, past or present, who comes remotely close to touching the accolades achieved by US Olympic gymnast Simone Biles. Yet […]
Read moreInteresting. I started this blog primarily to write and document my experiences training and competing in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu and MMA, and then I find myself relating it to my emotions and personal life experiences more often than not. It has become a therapeutic outlet in a safe space I can air out my grievances […]
Read moreTrauma is probably something that shouldn’t be as highly relatable as it is, but unfortunately, almost every single person you come into contact with has suffered or endured something in their past that has dramatically altered the course of their existence. It has molded us, impacted us, and effected us, but it should never define […]
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