Middle Child Syndrome

Born too late to explore the earth, born too early to explore the galaxy; alas we are the middle children of history. Often times, this is how I feel, maybe not in such a broad, contextual sense of the phrase, but in little tidbits here and there. I’m surrounded by the constant reminder that I […]

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Thoughts of an Ambivert

An ambivert is a person who is defined as having both introverted and extroverted mindsets. We enjoy our time spent being around people, but we also need to take some solitary alone time in order to “recharge our batteries.” I love being surrounded by the people in my life, but occasionally, I need a break […]

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Adulting is Hard, mkay?

Ever hear the phrase that if you’re always the smartest person in the room, then you should get up and go find a new room? I am really trying to abide by this mindset lately. Not that I’m ever the most intelligent in any given room, I’m a moron, but I am always willing to […]

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Patience is a Virtue

Balance. Everything in life ebbs and flows as we try to reach an equilibrium in our lives. I balance the role of dutiful girlfriend, doting pseudo parent, BJJ instructor, business owner, and mma fighter. I’m always constantly worrying that I am putting too much effort into a handful of those things and stress myself out […]

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A Guide to Not Giving a F*ck

So the other day I walk into my second favorite place on the planet, the bookstore, (the gym and cage are obviously the #1 contenders) and I head over to the selection of the most current best sellers. I happen to notice the majority of the most recent best selling books are self-help ones. Not […]

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Atelophobia

Honestly, I can’t be the only person out there who goes through periods of time where it feels like nothing I do is good enough. I am struggling on the mats and I am struggling in life and I just can’t seem to make things work. I try so hard, and sometimes I just hit […]

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Don’t Let Me Get Me

This will be the year that I stop self sabotaging, I just need to keep repeating that mantra over and over. I am so guilty of this, in life, on the mats, even with my own family, and I hate myself and feel so much shame over it. This past weekend is such a good […]

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Jingle Hells

The stockings are hung, the presents are wrapped, the tree is decorated, and the Jameson has been opened. From the outside looking in, my house now resembles the ideal pinterest image, but if people only knew the truth lurking just below the surface, instead of sugar plum fairies dancing in my head, I am personally […]

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The Hammer & the Nail

There are days where regardless of what’s going on, I’m a positive ray of sunshine, and then there are days far too often where no matter what the circumstances surrounding me are, I can’t seem to shake the feeling of overcast clouds encroaching upon me. There’s a pretty common saying in Jiu Jitsu; sometimes you’re […]

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