Sometimes I am having conversations with my friends lately, then all of a sudden I am hit abruptly with the realization that we are collectively getting up there in age. It’s crazy how much I used to scrutinize my appearance instead of cherishing that youthful, and cherubic skin with only mild aches and pains. And, […]
Read moreIdle Hands
Idle hand’s are the devil’s playground. Or for me specifically, if I am not inundating myself with countless tasks and responsibilities, my brain wanders into dangerous territory. I swear, I must think of every possible scenario that would cause catastrophic mayhem and devastation in my life, and wonder when the inevitable other shoe will drop. […]
Read moreCircling The Drain
Samantha Schell Anxiety, BJJ, Overcoming Adversity Anxiety, bjj, Depression, injury, Jiu Jitsu, mental health
One thing happens, then another, and then another. Slowly, things begin piling up, and all of a sudden you’re in a downward spiral that you can’t seem to control. The negative experiences seem to surmount, which lead to negative thinking, which then leads to feelings of discouragement, which then lead to isolation, which ultimately just […]
Read moreEmotional Regulation
I have always found that people are like icebergs; you see a tiny bit of them peeking out above the surface, but there is so much more of them that lies beneath which you can not see. There is a part of us we openly display to the world, i.e., in public and across social […]
Read moreWhat Was I Made For?
Samantha Schell Anxiety, mental health, Overcoming Adversity Anxiety, barbie, fake, future, meaning of life, purpose, understanding 7
Listen, I caught myself watching Billie Eilish’s Oscar performance the other night, and it moved me tears. I had never listened to the song ‘What Was I Made For’ in its entirety, and when I was scrolling social media, her performance popped up on my feed, because I was not spending my Sunday watching over […]
Read moreShe Who Hesitates is Lost
Samantha Schell Anxiety, BJJ, Competing, Overcoming Adversity Anxiety, Competition, fear, hesitate, hesitation, injury, nerves 8
I’ve heard about things like a creative block, or writer’s block, which fortunately, I haven’t really faced all that much. But when is it called when you’re having a competition block? I mean, I went from someone who was eager to compete and did so all of the time, practically every weekend, to having a […]
Read moreGiving Them Their Shine
Samantha Schell Anxiety, BJJ, Competing, Family, Friendship, love, self confidence Anxiety, bjj, Competition, ego, family, friendship, jiu jitus, love, relationships, work
Is my partner my biggest advocate, confidante, cheerleader, supporter? Or secretly, a hater lurking in the shadows? By this I mean are they truly rooting for me when I am excelling in things, even when they themselves are coming up short, which let’s be honest, can be quite the blow to anyone’s ego. Watching those around […]
Read moreSticks & Stones
Samantha Schell Anxiety, BJJ, Laughter, mental health Anxiety, Competition, kindness, mental health, positivity 2
It’s no secret I have a lot of feelings when it comes to this blog, or the things in life I am passionate about. One of them predominately being Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, as much of my life centers around that topic in particular. With an abundance of competition happening lately with me being unable to […]
Read moreGives You Hell
Samantha Schell Anxiety, BJJ, Competing, Overcoming Adversity, Perseverance, Positivity Anxiety, bjj, Jiu Jitsu, karma, positivity, revenge, success
How many people cross paths in our life that truly enjoy every moment of our failures, and relish in every single one of our down falls. Sometimes out of jealousy or envy, or out of a once-soured relationship, or simply because our mere existence seems to bother them. But if there is a universally relatable […]
Read morePutting the ‘A’ in Anal
Can you do it all? Or will you implode under the crushing weight of everything coming down on top of you? This may be something I am trying and testing out, as I am taking on a vast number of tasks recently, but for some reason as much stress as I am under, I freaking […]
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