I hate the world today. Nah, honestly even if that’s not true, I feel like everyone can relate a little bit to Meredith Brooks in one way or another. Some days, we just wake up on the wrong side of the bed for no apparent reason. It’s like sometimes someone pissed in our bowl of […]
Read moreMake Me the Bad Guy, Chun-Li
It’s amazing how you can accomplish so much and yet, still feel like a failure. Overall, I had a pretty significant year, but all I can do is focus upon the areas in which I fell short. I do this with every training session as well. Instead of thinking about what I’m walking away having […]
Read moreInferiority Complex
Life isn’t one long measuring stick of set mile markers we are supposed to reach, yet I am always finding myself being so harsh on myself mentally for not living up to certain expectations. This is something I really used to struggle with when it came to Jiu Jitsu; watching other people receive stripe or […]
Read moreI Don’t Think You’re Ready for This Jelly
“Envy is Ignorance. Imitation is Suicide.”- Ralph Waldo Emerson. “These bitches salty, they sodium. They Jelly, petroleum.”- Cardi B. My mind can be a scary place. Why do we continue to put our best foot forward, smile in the face of adversity, and strive so hard to be a good person when the world just […]
Read moreFloat Like Butterfly, Sting Like a Bee
I preface a lot of posts by saying I don’t know who needs to hear this but (and then implementing my infinite wisdom on the masses with the next sentence) but this time I am screaming this advice from the rooftops because this is something everyone in all walks of life needs to hear. You […]
Read moreThe Lost Art of Integrity
In the eyes of some people, nothing you ever do accomplish in life will ever be good enough. And all I gotta say about that is fuck those people, they ain’t your people sis. They are just a bunch of miserable shells of unfulfilled and unsatisfied folks grasping at straws. I’m not out here trying […]
Read moreNo Guts, No Glory. No Pain, No Story.
Crying doesn’t make you a loser. Bleeding doesn’t make you a loser. Tapping doesn’t make you a loser. Even failing doesn’t make you a loser. Quitting, however, does. And this, I should add, is with anything in life, not just Jiu Jitsu or MMA. Quite recently, I was ready to give up on something because […]
Read moreMiddle Child Syndrome
Born too late to explore the earth, born too early to explore the galaxy; alas we are the middle children of history. Often times, this is how I feel, maybe not in such a broad, contextual sense of the phrase, but in little tidbits here and there. I’m surrounded by the constant reminder that I […]
Read moreAlways Rising
Let’s talk burn out: aka when long term exhaustion meets diminished interest. Like the cindered butts of a cigarette long since ashed, the warm embers rapidly losing heat are synonymous with the way I can end up feeling day in and day out. And that’s in relation to my workload with all of my tasks, […]
Read morePatience is a Virtue
Balance. Everything in life ebbs and flows as we try to reach an equilibrium in our lives. I balance the role of dutiful girlfriend, doting pseudo parent, BJJ instructor, business owner, and mma fighter. I’m always constantly worrying that I am putting too much effort into a handful of those things and stress myself out […]
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