We all do it, every single one of us. It’s almost like this type of human nature is ingrained in our brains where we have to see how we “measure up” in comparison with our peers. We tell ourselves that it doesn’t matter and that all of us have different journey’s and all take different […]
Read moreCircling The Drain
One thing happens, then another, and then another. Slowly, things begin piling up, and all of a sudden you’re in a downward spiral that you can’t seem to control. The negative experiences seem to surmount, which lead to negative thinking, which then leads to feelings of discouragement, which then lead to isolation, which ultimately just […]
Read moreSticks & Stones
It’s no secret I have a lot of feelings when it comes to this blog, or the things in life I am passionate about. One of them predominately being Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, as much of my life centers around that topic in particular. With an abundance of competition happening lately with me being unable to […]
Read moreThe Cheese Stands Alone
I worked so hard growing up never to stand out. I wanted to blend right in so I wouldn’t be differentiated and then subjected to scrutiny and ridicule. Never alone, but always amongst others where I could camouflage myself in the crowd. Early on in childhood, I pushed hard to excel and stand out. Then, […]
Read moreMy 2 Constants
Everyone who has ever read my blogs can be 100% sure of at least 2 things. The first being that although I fight in a cage and grapple on the mats, I’m still a human being with a wide array of feelings, many correlating to those of anxiety, and I get sad and nervous just […]
Read moreBreathe, Just Breathe
I’m going to deviate a bit from my normal Jiu Jitsu spiel and woah’s to talk about something a little bit more personal, truly exposing my vulnerability on this one. I’ve run into a bit of an issue lately when it comes to my mental health and looming anxiety. I think it stems a bit […]
Read moreCompetition Mindset
I compete all the time, but my dumb ass seems to have had a mental block lately when it comes to turning on that different mindset so that it transcends from training, to competition. It’s hard; not everyone has that championship mentality switch that they can turn on and off at a moments notice. Then, […]
Read moreIt is Called Garbage Can, Not Garbage Cannot
It’s hard not to feel like trash constantly in a sport that challenges every facet of your being. Let alone feeling like fucking garbage in your day to day life when inevitably, something doesn’t go according to plan or your mental health is taking a hit due to personal reasons. A lot of times, especially […]
Read moreDo Re Mi, ABC, 123, Baby It’s ADD
I don’t know exactly what I’m doing with this life, but I am sure as shit trying to get the most out of it that I possibly can. These past couple of months have been a blur, and the remainder of 2022 is shaping up to be the exact same. From knee surgery, to countless […]
Read moreG.O.A.T
Imagine feeling so entitled to your cockamamie opinions, you think you hold some clout when it comes to commenting on the choices and decisions made by the most winningest athlete in history. There is no one, past or present, who comes remotely close to touching the accolades achieved by US Olympic gymnast Simone Biles. Yet […]
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