Gratitude. One simple, small little word with a whole lot of depth and meaning. We are but a microsm of the universe; here for a finite amount of time and simply a blip on the radar that will mean almost nothing to practically the entirety of the world. To the few who matter though, we […]
Read morejoke with my partner about his social abilities and extroverted abilities while I’m often perfectly content in my solitude and the quiet. While this can be perceived as stand off-ish, it’s honestly just because my mind needs time to recharge and my emotional state to recuperate
Read moreTaking a page out of Halsey’s book because there is no other way for me to put it then to simply say, ‘I’m bad at love.’ What I mean by this is I’ve always been stubborn when it came to relationships, and not just the romantic type. I struggle to build bonds and form alliances […]
Read moreTrying to find and navigate your place in this world in a role that not only suits you but that is also found to be fulfilling is a struggle many of us face. If we are successful in our athletic endeavors, do we assume that we are nothing after a loss or a switch in […]
Read moreInteresting. I started this blog primarily to write and document my experiences training and competing in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu and MMA, and then I find myself relating it to my emotions and personal life experiences more often than not. It has become a therapeutic outlet in a safe space I can air out my grievances […]
Read moreYou know, sometimes I wonder if it really looks like I have it together so effortlessly, that no one bothers to check in every now and then to see if I need a mental reprieve from the constant bombardment of task after task and obligation after obligation. Most times, it suits me well, as my […]
Read moreEverything is hard, you just gotta be bigger than your excuses and greater than your fears. Sure, easier said than done, but when are we going to stop letting our mind limit us and dictate our destinies? Someone* recently told me that anxiety is an emotion, not a diagnosis or personality trait, and to use […]
Read moreI’m tired of being too fearful to establish boundaries in my life. Whether that be everyday happenstances, personal or professional relationships, or even everyday meet and greets. I also owe zero explanation for my reasonings for establishing said boundaries and hard fixed points that will never relent or waver, ever. It is important to stand […]
Read moreCancel Me. After all, it seems to be like the new thing everyone is clamoring for when anything controversial or even a differing of opinions arises. While I vehemently agree that there is no room for hateful, derogatory, inflammatory, crude, racist, sexist, and downright disgusting thoughts, behaviors, comments, and actions, I also believe that not […]
Read moreYou can lead a horse to water, but you can not make it drink. There has been an awful amount of time lately where I have been feeling like the world’s crappiest cowboy, shepherding a multitude of horses to the trough, only for them to whinny and thrash about because they are thirsty, yet refusing […]
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