I guess we’re all performers in one way or another. Whether it’s our work life, or personal life, or the face that we present to the public. There is certainly a part of us that acts, even if it’s just acting like things don’t bother us or that we don’t care. Currently that’s me. I […]
Read moreIt’s crazy all of the things that can happen behind the scenes whilst in preparation for a big opportunity or event in your life. In regards to an athlete, it’s often a big game or match (for me, a fight or competition). Whilst others may be a career-oriented opportunity or a networking event. I know […]
Read moreSo the other day I was in the deli line at Harris Teeter, and I was watching a woman order her Boar’s Head cold cuts in a rushed and dismissive manner. The young man working the counter must have been 20 at most, and was enthusiastically greeting his customer and engaging in polite conversation to […]
Read moreWhat do I see when I look in the mirror? Am I happy with the woman staring back at me? Sometimes, but in different ways than I did when I was younger, and never content because I always strive to be better and do better. See, when I was younger I was incredibly self-conscious about […]
Read moreThroughout life, I have attempted to try my best. With friendships, relationships, academics, and competition. I’ve accomplished some things, but without a doubt, not one day goes by where I am sure I could have done better. Tried harder. Worked harder. Stopped making excuses. Achieved better results. But I’m a nobody in a sea full […]
Read moreIt’s hard not to feel like trash constantly in a sport that challenges every facet of your being. Let alone feeling like fucking garbage in your day to day life when inevitably, something doesn’t go according to plan or your mental health is taking a hit due to personal reasons. A lot of times, especially […]
Read moreFight camp has officially begun, so how am I doing mentally? Surprising really fucking good to be honest. Trust me, I’m just as shocked as you are. Talk to any high-level, elite, professional mixed martial artist and they’ll tell you that the preparation of fight camp is one of the most physically grueling and mentally […]
Read moreLeadership is an acquired skill, not a personality trait. My friend Jess told me this the other day, and she says to credit Jocko Willink for this bit of wisdom, but I’m gonna credit her for bringing it to my attention. You see, I’ve been writing a lot lately about my internal struggles, and I’m […]
Read moreI suck at Jiu Jitsu, and you probably do too. Hear me out; this sentiment rings true especially for competitors. We are constantly pushing ourselves in training and striving to be the best that we can possibly be. Often times gearing up for tournaments, or Jiu Jitsu super fights or even MMA fights, and it […]
Read moreYou know, sometimes it’s pretty exhausting always trying to be the ever optimistic voice of reason and profound happiness for every fucking person. I almost feel like I don’t have a right to ever be down or sad because I always have to be the person people turn to when they themselves are down in […]
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