I love my boring life. Boredom means safety and security, reliability; no surprises (I actually hate those). I don’t mean that I find my life boring per se, but that I have finally reached a point in my life that I never imagined to be attainable. I don’t wake up wondering where my next meal […]
Read moreYesterday, I Was 25
Sometimes I am having conversations with my friends lately, then all of a sudden I am hit abruptly with the realization that we are collectively getting up there in age. It’s crazy how much I used to scrutinize my appearance instead of cherishing that youthful, and cherubic skin with only mild aches and pains. And, […]
Read moreHeads Up
When did we stop caring so much about our fellow man? We went from a society of “it takes a village,” to “every many for themselves.” A little bit of common courtesy can go a long way. We all want to envision ourselves as the person who can remain devoutly independent, and doesn’t need anyone […]
Read moreHot & Fresh Out the Kitchen
Samantha Schell Anxiety, BJJ, Perseverance, self confidence, Teaching accountability, assault, consequences, crime, criminals, hubris, morals, responsibility, sexual assault 8
At what point do people looks past the money, the power, and the accolades in order to hold people accountable? Corruption exists everywhere, and boy, can it be daunting to be the sole person trying to point out that someone needs to be held liable for their actions. It’s unpopular to deviate from the crowd, […]
Read moreFather Time
Blink and you’ll miss it. My god, is that so true. I used to think it was just something old people said, or other parents just stated in order to commiserate with their peers. But the older I get, the truer it is that life just goes by way too fast. And what’s even crazier, […]
Read moreLife’s Too Short
As improbable as it is, sometimes I wish I can go back in time, and fix things or prevent others from happening. I know that it does us no good to dwell in the past, but when horrific and tragically traumatic instances occur in our lives, it is hard not to wonder “what-if?” If only […]
Read moreIdle Hands
Idle hand’s are the devil’s playground. Or for me specifically, if I am not inundating myself with countless tasks and responsibilities, my brain wanders into dangerous territory. I swear, I must think of every possible scenario that would cause catastrophic mayhem and devastation in my life, and wonder when the inevitable other shoe will drop. […]
Read moreCircling The Drain
Samantha Schell Anxiety, BJJ, Overcoming Adversity Anxiety, bjj, Depression, injury, Jiu Jitsu, mental health
One thing happens, then another, and then another. Slowly, things begin piling up, and all of a sudden you’re in a downward spiral that you can’t seem to control. The negative experiences seem to surmount, which lead to negative thinking, which then leads to feelings of discouragement, which then lead to isolation, which ultimately just […]
Read moreBlood is Thicker Than Water
Samantha Schell Anxiety, Family, Friendship, love bonus parent, family, hardships, healing, love, parenting, step parenting 18
Blood is thicker than water, but the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb; meaning that the relationships we choose to forge, and those who stand beside us in times of battle, are the strongest bonds in our life. The motto of our gym, “not all family is blood” is […]
Read moreEmotional Regulation
I have always found that people are like icebergs; you see a tiny bit of them peeking out above the surface, but there is so much more of them that lies beneath which you can not see. There is a part of us we openly display to the world, i.e., in public and across social […]
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