I guess we’re all performers in one way or another. Whether it’s our work life, or personal life, or the face that we present to the public. There is certainly a part of us that acts, even if it’s just acting like things don’t bother us or that we don’t care. Currently that’s me. I […]
Read moreDiscipline. A simple word in English language, but a complex subject matter not meant for the weak-willed or the mundane or mediocre. Discipline requires mastery of one’s compulsory thoughts, actions, and behaviors, and it takes years of building up the habits and the temperament to be able to accomplish this. Motivation is often fleeting, and […]
Read moreThey say in life that sometimes you gotta stop and smell the roses, but I’m in the middle of fight camp wondering how I’ll have time to stop and smell anything when all I can smell is the scent of my own sweat oozing out of my pores as I push my body to its […]
Read moreI compete all the time, but my dumb ass seems to have had a mental block lately when it comes to turning on that different mindset so that it transcends from training, to competition. It’s hard; not everyone has that championship mentality switch that they can turn on and off at a moments notice. Then, […]
Read moreSo the other day I was in the deli line at Harris Teeter, and I was watching a woman order her Boar’s Head cold cuts in a rushed and dismissive manner. The young man working the counter must have been 20 at most, and was enthusiastically greeting his customer and engaging in polite conversation to […]
Read moreThere’s a common saying in Jiu Jitsu, that every day we strive to be 1% better. Do you know how difficult and pretty much impossible it is to be a whole ass percentage better than you were the previous day as far as continuity on that path goes? That’s because progress isn’t linear, but instead, […]
Read moreThroughout life, I have attempted to try my best. With friendships, relationships, academics, and competition. I’ve accomplished some things, but without a doubt, not one day goes by where I am sure I could have done better. Tried harder. Worked harder. Stopped making excuses. Achieved better results. But I’m a nobody in a sea full […]
Read moreI am she who fights in front. Neither watching from the back nor dictating how to lead from afar, but thrusting myself to the front lines of the challenges I face and determined to do all that I can to prepare myself for the battles to come. After all, I could never request favors of […]
Read moreIt’s hard not to feel like trash constantly in a sport that challenges every facet of your being. Let alone feeling like fucking garbage in your day to day life when inevitably, something doesn’t go according to plan or your mental health is taking a hit due to personal reasons. A lot of times, especially […]
Read moreProbably one of the hardest things in the world to deal with, is watching one of our loved ones suffer or get hurt and not being able to stop the pain from occurring. I don’t think it ever hurt me emotionally as badly before as when my husband or his kids were hurting from something […]
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