In the eyes of some people, nothing you ever do accomplish in life will ever be good enough. And all I gotta say about that is fuck those people, they ain’t your people sis. They are just a bunch of miserable shells of unfulfilled and unsatisfied folks grasping at straws. I’m not out here trying to impress a bunch of strangers on the internet with nothing better to do than to harp on others for their successes and the things they are excelling out. No one out here is critiquing people they are doing better than in life. Read that again. There are people out there that have absolutely nothing worth hanging on to so they get their rocks off by belittling the achievements and successes of others. It’s easier to blame our downfalls on the hands we have been dealt in life rather than facing the facts that despite the hardships, putting in an incredible amount of work and perseverance can propel one to reach their goals. Happiness and success often go hand in hand, and they don’t just fall into our laps. Well, honestly, I did just kind of fall into my partner’s pants-less lap, but that was an anomaly (there’s always an outlier somewhere). Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, and small minds discuss people.
We are only human, and it’s hard not to harbor any sadness when we hear or see people speaking vitriol at our expense. But I refuse to let irrelevant ass people have any effect on my emotional wellbeing. It takes a really miserable person to try and seek gratification by lambasting spiteful words and hurling insults at someone else, either publicly or behind the scrutiny of closed doors. And anyone who tries to undermine you or sabotage you at every turn just proves that you are doing all the right things. If anything, all I do is pity these people and the false sanctimonious predisposition they try to perpetuate. I don’t have that kind of free time or patheticness to sit around and speak ill on others 24/7 and try and throw a wrench in their path at every turn. It seems as if these people are so full of a venomous substance that they can’t contain it; instead it spews forth from their every orifice trying to permeate the environment in which they reside. Being that I’m not Mia Khalifa in my side hustle, I’m not trying to get covered in anything spewing from someone else unless it’s the blood of my enemies as I lay a beatdown.
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but some of y’all wasted valuable time catching feelings when you should have been catching these hands. Quit wasting your emotions on them unworthy people bruh. We do not have a finite amount of positivity to give, so be a geyser of grace, humility, and amicability. Some days I am only a hair’s breadth away from straight up calling people out for defecating on everything they come in contact with like a dung beetle marking its territory. Keep the shit in the sanitation system and sewers and quit clogging up the pipes of my life. Bless the espresso machine for reeling me back from the brink of insanity and calming my agitated aggression with a steady stream of caffeinated liquid treasure and for being the reason I am able to bite my tongue. The people who I will never be good enough for are 100% not my people. My people are a chorus of supporters and strength and void of the type of jealousy that would deteriorate the strength in bonds. In the words of Ralph Waldo Emerson, envy is ignorance. Those who envy do so from a cold, uneducated mindset and refuse to open their eyes to the greater good. A narcissist will only ever relate to how things directly or indirectly effect them, without a second thought on the greatest benefit to those in discussion. A wise man grasps knowledge and understanding of the future and knows that many times they will plant the seeds for trees of which they won’t ever be able to seek solitude in its shade. Sometimes it’s about laying the foundation for what’s to come.
Life, experience, and lessons learned are truly the best methods to gain knowledge and understanding, and in this day and age, ignorance is no longer a palpable justification for detrimental behavior. Empathy is also a trait and characteristic so few are willing to take the time to relate with as of late. We exist in a conundrum of selfish perseverance, but if we cease to look out for our fellow man, how long until we start purposely leading to their downfall as well? I am so sick of those who should be working together actively trying to topple the system and decimate each other’s goals. And for what? To win out on some sort of popularity contest that no one gives a flying fuck about? It’s time for a little self reflection and if you catch yourself trying so hard to hurt someone that you lose sight of the goal and what is really important, then perhaps it is time to get the fuck over yourself. At times, we need to swallow our pride like the worst tasting amoxicillin in existence, in order to help benefit those we love. The problem is, the narcissistic and selfish numbers of us come out in droves and know how to manipulate the flying monkeys to do their bidding to the highest order. Perhaps there is nothing so frustrating as busting your ass to be a good person and do what’s best while the cockroaches of society keep trying to deteriorate any semblance of growth in a positive direction in order to bring down the whole system.
Making a positive difference is hard, and many times the fruitless hours spent trying to accomplish such an incredible goal can deter us from doing what is morally right. It is much easier to reach an outlandish and egregious notoriety than it is to make a positive difference. For example, I’m sure there are many more people out there right now who would be able to name the last 5 mass shooters versus the last 5 Nobel Prize winners. But are we that encumbered by such a self serving society that we falter under the pressures of doing what is best in order to selfishly stroke our own egos? It’s 2019 y’all, the only thing we should be stroking are consensual body parts. And thank goodness for freedom of speech for allowing me the right to say that last sentence without punitive repercussions. If you value integrity, then be prepared to take a beating from those who have none (it’s a good thing I’m a fighter by trade I guess). “Society’s punishments are small compared to the words we inflict on our soul when we look the other way.”-MLK And all I can hope for is that one day, those I care about will recognize this and see the courage and sacrifices doing the right thing has entailed. It may not always be easy, but it will always be worth it and I can sleep soundly at night knowing my heart is light with a selfless purpose. Honesty and authenticity go hand in hand. Integrity is choosing your thought and actions based on values rather than personal gain. Be like the Nike commercials and just do it already.
